Why I Plan to Keep Fighting My Focus... (Post #17)

In that moment, I had to honestly ask myself, “Exactly, what is HONESTLY AND TRULY REALLY stopping me from continuing my study?”  In other words, if I said, “no matter what, I’m going to keep on studying”, what force would actually stop me?

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So, maybe you can relate to this.

So, I’m in the middle of my Bible study, trying my best to focus on The Word of God, when I find my mind struggling to focus. 

I pray, I ask God for help; all of my tried and true methods of overcoming the enemy and his distractions in the moment.  However, as I try once again to study, I find that I’m still struggling with my focus.  I’m now bombarded with negative thoughts that are unproductive and even conflicting with my growth in God. 

At that moment, I was challenged to consider this question:  what should a believer do, when they are striving to reach God, yet and still, overwhelmed by the battle of our negative and sinful nature? 

Well, I’m not sure that this is the absolute answer; however, it helped me, and I pray it helps you. 
In that moment, I had to honestly ask myself, “Exactly, what is HONESTLY AND TRULY REALLY stopping me from continuing my study?”  In other words, if I said, “no matter what, I’m going to keep on studying”, what force would actually stop me?

While this question was super simplistic, its level of disclosure was enormous.  You see, it challenged me to face the true reality of all perceived distractions.  You see, a distraction is a mental dilemma with only the thought of an actual physical limitation.  You see, as I fought for my focus, I noticed that my performance slowed down.  However, after some consideration, I had to ask, “WHY am I allowing this to happen?” 

In that moment, I had to ask, “Does this thing called distraction REALLY have the power to stop me after prayer?”

To that, I said NO.  Fact:  I don’t have to literally see God’s Work to know God’s working.  And with that, I continued my study.  Sure, not 100%; nonetheless, I continued to drag my distracted mind all the way to the finish. 

Is that what I wanted?  No.  Was my mind at optimal clarity?  No.  However, do these “no’s” have the right to stop my productivity?  To that I say NO also.

At that moment, I accepted this to be true:  I can do, what I need to do, even if I don’t feel like it.  And, I can do, what I need to do, even if I don’t WANT to do it. 

In that moment, I allowed my Spirit to tell my flesh, we are going to continue to this study, and we don’t care if you join us or not.  However, we are most confident, that you will decide (after a while) to meet us in The Word. 

So, I’m still in the study and I’m still learning from the Word. 

And interestingly enough, this blog post, has helped me to gain greater focus. 

Your thoughts?

Imperfectly,

​Kevin D. Jones, Sr.
@kevindjonessr
#PefectlyImperfectPerfectionist